Friday, January 05, 2007

Peace

Alone in the light
Down cast eyes
The seering spotlight bursts through a sea of nothing
Black and hollow eyes erupt with light
Momentarily hovering in sanity's circle
Craving ignorance and indifference
While the night swirls about me
I fade further from myself
Losing hope and releasing my grip
Watching it all fall away
And a true smile creeps upon my face
as I fall to never arise
Collapse to never feel again
While a darkness I unwittenly welcomed
Blankets my remains

Thursday, December 28, 2006

Fallen

Life....you bring me down
Choking my wings as I fall to the ground
And my tears rain about me
Warming my cheeks and quelling my will to fly
Through the clouds I lose my way
The rush steals my breathe out of me
The frost seals my eye goodnight
And I sing....oh sweet goodbye....
Come faster...oh sweet goodbye

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

The Innermost Truth


Sleeping....nothing
sleeping....nowhere
no one will find me in this black behind my eyes
no one could ever sympathize
with someone who's slept....all my life
crying behind these curtains
a whimper in the night
but my fist clenches something
pry open my scarred hands
because I'm still holding onto something
slowly my palms are crying
yearn to learn what I'm hiding
and then my fist rolls over lightly
holding onto something less tightly
gaze at the secret I am holding
as my hands are slowly unfolding....
shards of glass channel blood from my palms

My Daily Ritual


Outside of my mind
floating into nothing
dancing on the polluted raindrops
headover heels
swimming through lies
and I find a false reflection
in every lie I find my false reflection
and in every drop I find a lie
the drops always fall while I'm alive
falling faster growing in magnitude
till the drops crash on me like meteors
swirling about me
they swirl higher about me
and my feet locked to the ground
will I find my cut off point
or will I simply drown....

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Rebirthing Man


Change my life Lord...show me the way...I grow tired fighting myself everyday...caught in between the pleasure and pain....innocent no longer and never the same... please light the darkness in my core....so I'll have to hide.. nevermore...help me be the person I feel inside...not the person clothed in lies....

I grow tired of this tugging war... it's only fun till I hit the floor...then I see how far I'm gone...and how many things I've done so wrong...I cry so lonley in my hollow shell...but a world of tears couldn't douse my hell...I have two sides I do believe...one I keep slipped up my sleeve...the first one reminds me softly I'm sick....the other one screams six six six...

So light my way Lord quell the storm....help me do myself no harm....craft me in your gentle hands....make me into a better man....I'll fight no longer to keep myself down...it's time to let the real me out...here's hoping the world will not decide who I am....and here's hoping this isn't a false start again....I've made my choice and decided my way....I pray I'll stand the light of day...

Saturday, June 03, 2006

For Girlfriend- Seize the day by Avenged Sevenfold

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here,
too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn,
I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life,
but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile,
holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come,
but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn,
I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry(a melody, a memory, or just one vision)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here,
too many people to ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us,
changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight,
follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn,
I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry(a melody, a memory, or just one vizion)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
Its empty and cold without you here,
too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here
Don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, yeah,
or kiss your lips again? Whooooah
So I never want to leave you and the memories of us to see
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
Its empty and cold without you here,
too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here
Don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

(Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day)
I stand here alone
Falling away from you,
no chance to get back home

Monday, May 29, 2006

For Two Very Close To My Heart...


I find your sorrow aches into my heart...and all the hugs in the world couldn't absorb your pain..I'm sorry the grief has run you over now...I'm sorry for every thing I cannot say....

But you must know that there are reasons for this...little Rita had a purpose and will always exist...see now she watches over us...so perfectly happy...held up above by the holy trinity...perhaps she was saved by the Lord from these evils...never the less joy is all she'll ever know...and even though we miss her she smiles upon us...knowing the truths we could never know...perhaps she had a special purpose...a little messenger from God...to let us know that life is precious...and grant us sorrow with which to grow strong...

If we could only see through the eyes of God...I know we would smile and carry on...because baby Rita has such beautiful peace now...and now we look on high...knowing she is there...she is closer than ever in many ways...the joy of our heart for those precious days....the joy of our souls forever more....and the beauty through which God we adore...

Goodbye Rita and we'll miss you so...we're torn inside that you had to go...cherrish every moment in eternity...and save a spot for my friends and me....pray for us in your everlasting glee...and let reign the sound of your giggling...no tears did you ever have to know....so just add to your joy that we love you so...look upon us in our stress...while holding on to Mary's dress...ask our mother for miracles and prayers...and ask our father to help us climb these stairs....help us live every day to the fullest...and let your smile part the skies...we will strive everyday...knowing that you are watching...and look foreward to the day...when loss and longing are things of the past...

Sunday, May 28, 2006

Remembering the Dead....Lost in the Defeat of Mankind.

Laying here I wonder wondering if my life payed satan's toll on our nation...battle scarred is my soul and I've lost all my friends...one by one we were swept away...and I remember the looks on their face...their faces beholding the purest terror...all for those who would never remember....

I was driven to this point by the barrel of a gun....I crawled while I could...till my work was done...but I fail to leave this world in peace...tragedy reigns in my dead eyes it would seem...don't tell my father how I died...because no one could be proud of this....oh how I cry....I cry for death of a nation at hand...because both sides fight for the life of friends...How could one be angry at their brother in Christ...for fighting...and blindly willing to survive..compassion is something rare in our world...forced to fight as the pawns of evil...take my life away God...because all the blood won't let me drown...

Reduce me to a number...one more soul for the lord...or one more meal for the devil...I don't know where I'm going because my conscience is as dead as my will to go on...thank you God for letting me die here...because I couldn't live with myself another day...thank you angel for guiding me through...this time of horror and suffering...thank you heaven...for your prayers gave me wings and the will to die hard...but now my time is over and I know no one will remember me...my body defiled and soul starting to scream...let me out this cannot be...how could mankind kill so endlessly...

Remembering the Fallen....-M.I.A- Avenged Sevenfold, war through the eyes of the haunted it seems.













Staring at the carnage, praying that the sun would never rise
Living another day in disguise
These feelings can't be right, lend me your courage to stand up and fight,
on tonight
Ohhh... tonight Stand up and fight
The fighting rages on and on, to challenge me you must be strong.
I walk your land but don't belong, two million soldiers can't be wrong
It's no fun but I've been here before
I'm far from home and I'm fighting your war
(Not the way I pictured this, I wanted better things)
Some are scared others killing for fun,
I shot a mother right in front of her son
(Take this from my consciousness and please erase my dreams)

Fight for honor, fight for your life
Pray to God that our side is right
Although we won I still may lose, until I make it home to you
I see our mothers filled with tears, grew up so fast where did those years go?Memories won't let you cry, unless I don't return tonight

So many soldiers on the other side,
I take their lives so they can't take mine
(Scared to make it out alive now, murder's all I know)
Nobody tells me all the reasons we're here,
I have my weapon so there's nothing to fear
(Another day, another life, but nothing real to show for)

Fight for honor, fight for your life
Pray to god that our side is right
Although we won I still may lose, until I make it home to you
I see our mothers filled with tears, grew up so fast where did those years go?Memories won't let you cry, unless I don't return tonight

Staring at the carnage, praying that the sun would never rise
Living another day in disguise
These feelings can't be right,
lend me your courage to stand up and fight
Watching the death toll rise wondering how I'm alive
Stranger's blood on my hands, shot all I canThere were no silent nights watching your brothers all die
To destroy all their plans with no thought of me (No thought of me)
No thought of me

Ohhhh...Walk the city lonely, memories that haunt are passing by
A murderer walks your streets tonight
Forgive me for my crimes
Don't forget that I was so young,
but so scaredIn the name of God and the Country